what do you really want?

seems to be the big @s$ question hanging over my head. presented with the option of studio managing full time for an amazing fashion photographer or studio assisting part time for an amazing wedding photographer, which do i choose? as a member of society i fancy appraisal and titles. i could say "i'm a Studio Manager working with such and such and aren't i super cool?" or "i'm a happy little assistant who's learning the business of it all with time to focus on my own personal endeavours". at the end of the day i'm an artist and i crave freedom. i want financial security but i also want time to create for myself. so...what it is??? life is really quite simply yet here i am complicating things....tidbits to smile back on down the line :)